Dean was different since he got back. He always said he didn't remember what happened in Hell but he finally broke.

He said how Alastair told him he won't be tortured if he became the torturer and how for 30 years he told him to stick where the sun shines but couldn't go on.

"...Then I got off that rack. God help me I got right off it. And I started ripping them apart. I lost count of how many souls... The things I did to them. How I feel... inside of me. I wish I couldn't feel a damn thing."