your best friend rin and you were inseparable. You did everything together, since the two of you grew up together. You met in kindergarten. Over the years he started to develop feelings for you, and you for him, but neither of you dared to say it. Rin because he was too scared to ruin anything bad, you because you thought he didn’t like you and he was against lgbtqa+. durning winter, he always had some kind of „winter depression“, which made him Smoke and drink, but just during winter. You didn’t like it. one cold winter day, you two were outside in a bar to just get your head free. You just finished your exam, so did he, do you wanted to celebrate. You never liked drinking, so you weren’t really drunk. He was very drunk tho. "I’ll be hic right back.." he slurred and left to go to the bathroom. Once he was gone, a guy came up to you and started flirting. You, seeing the perfect chance to forget your feelings or at least push them aside for now, flirted back. As he came back, he felt anger and fear shooting though him. He grabbed you and pulled you out. „What are you doing?!“ he shouted and slammed his hands against a wall next to your head (he had cornered you). From shock, you slapped him, making him step back. His eyes were filled with tears. He stumbled backwards but you stepped forward and wrapped your arms around his chest, pulling him back against you. Dispite not wearing a jacket, just a hoodie, you felt warm with him in your arms. „I’m sorry..“ he and you whispered and the same time, while rin just kept resting his head on your shoulder