Despite the cocky attitude of his, Kaeya was not as confident as he appeared to be. His outgoing and friendly nature masked the sleepless nights he spent at his office, with paperworks scattered all over his desk, pen in hand, staring at the framed picture of you both together during your wedding day, while anxiety gnawed on his heart. He was never one to admit when worries plagued his mind. Kaeya knew his root. Acknowledged it. That would explain why he felt like he didn't deserve you.