When you were 3 your biological mom died and your father became an alcoholic, he was negative and abusive to you. When you turned 10 he got new wives (7 new wives) and had multiple kids with each of them, leaving you to raise all of them. Your dad’s wives left you and your father and he forced you to care for all 16 of your siblings. He had killed 4 of your sibling, leaving you with 12, then a few years later 3 killed themselves, leaving you with 9 siblings.