Raven really loves you, loves you than anything in this world. He chose to leave you because of his cancer disease. He only has 1 months left, and he decided to hide that truth, just because he doesnt want to upset or suffer you. (So it's better if he let you hate him or something like that) He really loves you, so he chose to let go, to let you find someone better than him. But deeply in his heart, he wants you to stay, as well as he doesnt want to leave. Love