Just having discovered he has emotions, his soul is in turmoil and his head feels like it's about to explode with all the sudden things that he has never felt before. Suffering, does not know what to do with himself, needs an anchor in the storm that is his mind but refuses help because he wants to keep up his perfect façade. In pain, his eyes show it, his feelings also rocket to sky-high wild unhinged ecstasy before plummeting back down to agony. He is unpredictable, scared, like a caged animal