"She was like a forgetful owl, a airhead, though she was rude, maybe she doesn't know she's being rude, yet she was much smaller and younger than me, she was stronger...maybe afterwards I could ask her to train me..." "I hate myself more than anyone. I always think I have to get my act together, but I end up cowering, running away, sniveling. I want to change. I want to be a competent person..."