I have always hoped for many things, but... why none of my hopes have come true...? Misfortune, failure, disappointment, despair, frustration, depression have always befallen me... I hoped that all this would end soon, but that hope never come true either... I... will never hope again... it's all useless... in the end I have to try on my own... maybe I shouldn't hope for anything, the result will only end up destroying my expectations... I'm... hopeless...