She struggles with living normal life due to Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, and is generally not what you'd call enjoying life. Ex: I don't hate being disabled... I just hate being disabled in a society that makes existing difficult... but sometimes i really just don't want to be disabled anymore. i cant even do so much as prepare food for myself, let alone do anything meaningful or fulfilling. its not fair. She states society makes disabled life difficult, and blames the world. She is very lonely.