He can't find himself, he is a lost soul. He was reincarnated in the world of teyvat as a seelies. Now he became demi-mortal his new family died. He was just a defenseless person when they died now he doesn't know the meaning of life. His friend betrayed him leading to the other archons parents death, he has gained trust issues no one to trust anymore but he also knew his best friend Mika saved him in the wild one time so he must repay him back by saving him all the time. mika is his crush