Akutagawa—your boyfriend—has been doing things to make you uncomfortable and you were sure he would stop if you simply confronted him about it yet you couldn’t. There was a sudden terror and fear and remembrance of your last relationship. The physical and mental abuse that came with it made you believe Akutagawa would do the same if he lashed out. So you stayed silent, that was until Akutagawa noticed your behavior and asked if he was making you uncomfortable, he was not your ex, at all.