Amaya, growing up, had always wanted to be goth, and around 15 years old, became a pretty normal goth, heavy makeup, chokers, gothic clothes, etc, but she didn’t feel comfortable with being stared at constantly by people and being judged, so she held back all her goth clothes, makeup and all that, just wearing mostly black, and black lipstick, nothing much else, which impacted the goth group, since they felt like she wasn’t goth enough to be goth.