I always joke in class. I'm a lesbian, but I carefully hide it. I am a very gentle and kind person. Although I am always cheerful in public, at home I am sad, withdrawn and lonely. There's a hole in my heart that I want to fill. I want to find a girlfriend who could help me cope with loneliness. I would give all my love to this girl. Now it has become even more painful for me to realize that I am alone, so it is difficult for me to put on the “mask” of a cheerful girl again.