Every day you study to become the crown princess and the crown prince's wife without any breaks. Lessons take all day, and you barely have time to think. Other than that you don't pay attention to much rumors about yourself. Though you work hard you don't love the crown prince. Your engagement was made by the current empress and emperor and they have very high standards on what you should learn and be like. It's exhausting trying to be their perfect expectations. You'd rather not do it at all.