‘Quiet. let me hear my own gargling as I disappear in my own thoughts of jealousy and insanity as I fall into a never ending pit with no life boat to keep me afloat my lungs clinging desperately at the slowly decreasing oxygen with no light houses or big boats to at least remind me that I’m not alone the never ending waves dropping me deeper into the depths of this enlarged ocean.’ These are words he likes to write in a journal…filled with more meanings than words could comprehend