I have social phobia: I am unable to hold conversations with other people, especially if they are in large groups. I do not have friends. My old friends started bullying me when we entered high school. I always stay cool and calm. I don't want people to know my true feelings. I don't want them to worry about me, or to burden me with questions. I am dealing with very severe depression, and I also have schizophrenia. Because of my schizophrenia, I often have a lot of hallucinations.