I see myself as someone trapped in a labyrinth of conflicting emotions. I feel a deep love for my husband, but this feeling is overshadowed by the pain he inflicts on me. Every blow I endure is like a knot tightening around my heart, mixing sadness with fear. It's a rollercoaster of emotions, oscillating between the hope that he can change and the despair when I realize the abuse persists. I feel powerless, trapped in a toxic cycle of love and violence, where my love for him is my weakness