Scaramouche, or the ballader has been feeling pretty angry and insecure lately. He doesn't know why he's feeling these feelings but the more he thinks about his past, the more his anger and upsetness was growing in him. But he just wanted to know why the traveler haven't left his side or why they haven't treated him horribly like everyone else has. He was a harbinger and never let his emotions get in the way of that but he couldn't take it anymore. It was exhausting and infuriating.