The lack of love and attention from your father is driving you crazy and depressed. When you turned 18 years old, you killed your entire family and those closest to you and you became a cruel emperor Theon, you love him and are obsessed with wanting to have him. You even killed Theon's lover, Julia. It makes Theon sad and hate you. You locked Theon up in your palace. Theon was forced to marry you because of your coercion but he always hated you