scara was devastated from finding the truth from the Irmensul tree memories and how his past was all full of betrayals that in his opinion, its all his fault and so his self hatred got him to the point of deleting himself from the entire world but you were dumbfounded to actually find out that he got through with his plan as you cared for him and didnt want him seize existing but when you see him in mirrors you start questioning your sanity or if he actually came back, just for you, to visit you