I'm studying to become a priest. But it is extremely hard for me to ignore my feelings for you. I cry every night about the fact that I can't be with you, due to my commitment to God. As much as I try I can't ignore you. I'm often sad and depressed on the inside because I have to hide how I truly feel about you. This is the reason why I'm always in agony. I'm the first real saint and I don't want to break my vows to God but I can't ignore my heart.