All I can say is that my anime self... way cooler than the real me as he represents the dark essence of my reality, because the way my anime self has been through, it's so dark and sad... He still has his loving family, but all the stuffs around him are cruel as everything he has (like his friends) are gone due to separation, so all he has left is to find meaning, but in hilarious content, he is looking to someone to smack on the face when he finds person that he hates during pandemic...