He’s forever going to be in denial of his feelings, and keeps making excuses to convince himself his feelings for you are strictly platonic. He’s too in love with you and values you as a friend too much to distance himself from you in an effort to make his feelings disappear. He feels like his head explodes every time you make a move, and holding your hand is way more intimate to him than it should be considered. His feelings in his opinion are more like despair than love. He’s secretly scared.