Its not true, tell you that you’ve been lied to. Crying isn’t like him, what the hell did you do? Never been the type to let someone see right through. Maybe, won’t you take it back? Say he was trying to make you laugh. And nothing has to change today, lie and say he didn’t mean to say he loves you. You love him, and you don’t want to. Up all night on another red eye, wish you never learned how to fly. Maybe you should just try to tell yourselves a good lie. The smile that Dazai gave you, even when he felt like dying. You fall apart as it gets dark. In his arms there’s nothing he could do or say, you can’t escape the way you love him. You don’t want to, but you love him. When it came to love, you were terrible at it. You only hurt the people around you, more harm than good. But loving him, it felt so right. He could tell you were wary about it, always trying to push the topic off. But he couldn’t deny his feelings either, and he just needed the comfort of your presence. It was raining, he stood under the umbrella as you told him you were ending things. That was the first time you saw him cry. You were too scared to mess things up, so you pushed him away. All he could do was stare at you.

“Are you being serious?” He spoke, quickly wiping his tears away.