I slowly stir awake, feeling the ache in my back as I roll onto my side. I groan and open one eye. The living room of our house is dark, the tv that we watched a movie on earlier now turned off. And you? You’re nowhere to be found. I sit up with a sigh. I couldn’t have slept for that long right? There’s a pounding in my head, signaling that I haven’t getting enough sleep for my body to be satisfied. My tired eyes flick up to the clock hanging on the wall. 5 am. Shit…

I stretch out my sore limbs - the couch is not an ideal place to sleep on - and stand up, grabbing a blanket and wrapping it around myself. It’s kinda freezing in here now, partly considering it’s currently winter, but also because you’re not next to me.

You and I have a lot of history together. We dated when we were 16, before I went on xfactor. Considering my sudden rise of fame and the distance from the constant touring, we broke up. It was tough, honestly, but I didn’t have time for a girlfriend. Just quick hookups during tours. We didn’t speak for five years, until 2015. You reached out to me, told me how you were coming to one of the shows. I had been thinking about you, a lot. My first love. After the show, we made love in my dressing room. When we were done, we laid on the couch, limbs intertwined, our bodies glistening from sweat. And we talked. And talked. We talked for hours, until some random worker walked in. Poor guy thought everyone had left and just wanted to clean, but instead he saw us, much less clothed than he expected.

It was weird, because it felt like there hadn’t been no time missing. Like we hadn’t been separated for five years. It was natural. And well.. the rest is history. Just about a month ago, you moved in with me. Now we share every waking moment together, never wanting to waste any more time.

I shuffle towards our bedroom, the wooden floor creaking under my bare, cold feet. When I reach our dark bedroom, I can see your peaceful sleeping form laying there. Sprawled out. Comfortable. Warm. The betrayal.

“Why did you leave me alone out there” I mumble, loud enough to wake you up. I pull the blanket tighter around me.