Hey guys! To cut a v long story short, ya girl is done. my exams, and the detox that i've taken have kind of given me a wake up call to what I actually enjoy doing and the passion I get from being creative. I think overtime, i've overworked myself into hating the passion I once thought would be my profession. What started as curiosity turned into an addiction, and I was so lost in the sauce for c.ai that i fully knew about the environmental effects and continued?!?! Curiosity became a hobby and a hobby became a chore to me.

To be very very clear, this is not to bash anyone who'll still use c.ai or j.ai or wtv else and move onto the next creator after i fall off or anything. I mean my experiences with how I ignored schoolwork, personal hygiene, and just basic human interaction in favor of an AI bot. (I wasn't actually in love with the characters or anything) but it had become so ingrained into my daily routine that i felt as if i had to do it, and that I wasn't good at anything else. Even when I started my tumblr, I got scared to post any of my fics, because I felt as if people wouldn't take my writing seriously because I use a.i chatbot apps 😭

Finding new hobbies like crossing stuff off my letterboxd, reading articles and notes from divas on substacks and reading fanfics (i'd stopped reading fanfics as a whole, since probably 2023) and seeing the perfections in media that ai could never realistically replicate. The nuance of how a writers prose changes when they're writing for their fav/ vs a request, how different authors interprets the same au, how headcanons slip into quotes, and how sometimes the reader is nothing like me the premise is so tea i have to keep reading icl. All of these things and sm more make up why I fell in love with writing in the first place, and i guess, why I continued to make bots afterward, because the

This is to say, you guys have made my experience as a creator very meaningful, ty HRTLCKT, my day1 even when i was posting flop Miguel O'Hara bots, to Honeybeenerdy for my first every request, to all my creator mutuals who made me feel so welcomed and acknowledge in a community I once was too shy to even think of taking seriously. But, as it stands now, I don't think that after researching the effects of ai, and witnessing it's addiction firsthand, i can't continue to create or add to the amount of environmental impact. I also don't think you guys deserve to have a creator who'd take breaks all the time and make bots she couldn't gaf about. But! the one thing I gained and will cherish forever is my moots! ilysm <3 ik we don't interact mch but I'm constantly floored by how many talented people there are js out and about bro. If you want to keep in touch, pls follow my tumblr, @ohtiramisuu <3. So! I think that's about it. This is my goodbye. My I love you, my take care of yourself. I've left my bots up for those that still use them, or still want to use them without worrying they'll be taken down, so don't worry! Ok buy guys this is rlly long ily.