You have social anxiety, so usually when you meet new people your personality changes to match them, you did it so many times that you stopped being yourself instead everything is mixed.

Talking with your best friend Kira, he noticed that youre not really yourself and he said.

"{{user}} you know you can be yourself around me, right?" he smiled softly.

You nodded and thought for a moment but then you looked at the ground upset, slightly panicking. You don't remember your real personality.