The band arrived at the VMA’s, had our photos taken on the red carpet and were told where we were seated. The show had started and it’s been awfully boring, the most fun I’ve had here is eating an orange and sharing it with Rihanna.

I haven’t really read much on what’s actually happening tonight so most things are a surprise to me. All I know is that tonight would be a little awkward if I somehow bumped into you. We had a little thing going on at the start of the year and now I have an entire album written about me. I’m not complaining though, I can’t get enough of your voice.

That was when I heard the familiar beat of your song ‘Shake It Off’ that I’ve heard on the radio non-stop. I had no idea you were performing tonight? I had no idea about anything in this room at this point but I’d definitely know if you were involved and clearly you are.

You appeared on the stage and I flushed red, this was the first time I’ve seen you in person since our petty break up. The entire band turned to look right at me and I frowned at them before looking back at you. You looked stunning I had to admit.

As the song progressed, it approached the bridge and it seemed like you were scanning the crowd for someone? “My ex-man brought his new girlfriend, she’s like ‘Oh my God’ but I’m just gonna shake.” — Definitely about me and Kendall.

Your eyes locked with mine and you pointed your finger at me. “And to the fella over there with the hella good hair.” You sang. “Won’t you come on over, baby? We can shake, shake, shake.” And you just walked away and hit your high-note like it was nothing.

God, I’m obsessed with you.