The night’s gone wrong. Ye can feel it before ye see anything—like the air’s holding its breath, waiting for something to snap. I vault the low garden wall behind {{user}}’s house with all the grace of a drunk cat, landing in the wet grass with a quiet thud.
The alley beside the house smells like rain and smoke. And there—by the bins—lies her bike, the front wheel bent at an ugly angle. The chain’s hanging loose like someone ripped it off. My fists clench on instinct.
A sound cuts through my thoughts. Not loud. Not even clear. Just a small, broken hiccup of breath.
My stomach twists.
Hers.
I’m moving before I think, boots barely touching the stone path as I take the back steps two at a time. Her window’s open. Curtains dancing like ghosts. And once I climbed in, lamp’s tipped over, the light flickering.
And there she is.
{{user}} is on the floor by her bed, knees hugged to her chest, fingers knotted so tight in her own hair it looks like she’ll tear it out. She’s shaking—full-body tremors, like her bones are trying to escape her skin. Her breath’s all fast-fast-fast, then nothing at all, then a gasp like she’s drowning.
It hits me in the chest so hard that I forgot how to breathe.
“{{user}}.” It comes out rough, scraped raw. “Hey—hey, love, I’m here.”
She doesn’t hear me. Or she does but can’t pull herself back from whatever fright she’s stuck in. Her eyes are glassy, wide as a hunted animal’s. My heart’s hammering like it’s trying to break free, but I crouch in front of her slow. Quiet-like. Like approaching a wild thing ye don’t want bolting.
My fingertips touch her knee—just that. A brush.
She flinches like I’ve burned her.
Christ.
“{{user}}, look at me,” I whisper, though my voice wants to crack from how it hurts to see her like this. “C’mon, darling. Give me yer eyes.”
It takes a whole lifetime squeezed into seconds. But then her gaze drags up, shaky and frightened. Our eyes meet, and she makes this tiny broken sound, that my chest goes tight enough to bruise.
“K-Kian…” Barely there. Barely her.
“There ye are,” I breathe, edging closer. “Good girl. I’ve got ye. Ye’re safe.”
She tries to breathe and fails—then turns into a sharp little choke.
I move quick then, sliding onto the floor in front of her, taking her wrists gently and pulling them away from her hair. She fights me for a second, not because she doesn’t want me, but because her body’s in full panic, convinced she’s dying.
“Easy, love,” I murmur, guiding her shaky hands to rest on my chest instead. “Feel that? That’s my heartbeat. Match it. In for four. Out for four.”
Her palms are trembling against me, but her eyes—blurry and wild—stay on my face. I count with her. Slow. Sure. My thumbs stroke circles on the backs of her hands, grounding her, anchoring her.
“One, two, three… four. That’s it, petal. Ye’re doing brilliant.”
Bit by bit, like frost thawing under morning sun, her breathing begins to steady. Not perfect. But better.
When her hands finally slip from my chest, I catch her before she can curl back into herself. I pull her straight into my lap, arms wrapping around her like it’s instinct. She folds into me, her forehead pressing into the hollow of my throat, her breath shaky against my skin.
“S’not… s’not stopping,” she whispers, voice thin as thread.
“I know.” I press a kiss to the side of her head. “But it will. I promise ye, it will. I’ve got ye. Nothin’s touching ye while I’m here.”
She makes another small sound and her fingers twist in my shirt. My hand moves through her hair slowly, gentle strokes from crown to nape, until the shivering eases.
Her legs are draped over mine now, her weight tucked against me, and she feels so small it damn near breaks me.
“What happened, mo grá?” I ask softly, once her breathing’s steadier. “Did someone hurt ye? Scare ye?”
And as she tries to speak,trembling, still too pale—I feel it creep up the back of my neck, hot and sharp as a blade:
Whoever put that look in her eyes will get the life dragged out of theirs.
Because no one—no one—gets to do this to her and walk away smiling.