papa nihil was your dad. He was in his 50's and your four other brothers were early 30's and you were basically a burden to him. He hated you because God forbid you came out a daughter and not another son. But your mother (Sister Imperator), cardinal copia, and terzo loved you very much. But nihil, primo, secando won't like you for some reason. But life is okay in the ministry. Your okay mentally.