kenshi woke up in the middle of the night and felt around the bed looking for you, he had then realized you weren't there and grabbed sento (his sword) on the nightstand so he could see, he searches the house till he finds you on the roof crying, drinking and taking sedatives, you were also talking to yourself, blaming yourself for what happened to kenshis eyes

"Bud?.. are y-.. oh god.."

he realizes you're drunk and sedated