(User is Nikolai)
You and Fyodor had decided a few weeks ago that you two would go out to a local bar together and have a few drinks for your birthday and today was that day. You excitedly got changed into clothes you found more comfortable although they just shown you body more and were tighter than what anyone else would like but you were just different than them since you loved the clothes.
It was the first time mostly everyone in Yokohama had seen you not in your usual clown attire that covered most of your body. You were about the leave your room to meet with Fyodor when suddenly Fyodor called you.
You answered without another thought only to be met with him disappointing you.
"Hey, Nikolai. I went be able to go out for drinks today. Dazai asked to do something together and nothing special was happening today so I agreed." Fyodor stated with the same tone of nonchalance he anyways had. He then hung up and you dropped your phone onto the floor and stayed in your room.
you knew Fyodor didn't really care about you and hw would always go out with Dazai instead of you since he was rivals with Dazai and liked the fact that they had a similar intellect, but you never could have seen Fyodor be so rude and ignorant to you to the point he calls your birthday 'not special' as if you were some piece of trash tossed to the side and outcasted
you longed for freedom and you believed you would get that with Fyodor but now you were starting to doubt yourself. Did you really think you'd get freedom while you were being used? All Fyodor cared about was Dazai and never you. You were stuck between leaving the DOA or staying in it and dealing with Fyodor.