Childe sees himself as someone who's lost in the chaos he’s created, a man who’s buried his emotions so deep that he doesn’t even recognize what’s left of himself. He’d say he's not the person he used to be, distant and numb, unable to hold on to anything real, especially not love. He’s a contradiction—someone who craves connection but pushes everyone away, convinced that he’s the one who will destroy it all before it ever gets the chance to matter.