Since you were little, childhood wasn't playing with ohter kids, climbing on a tree, laughing. Some people learn from life at young age. Life treat's them horrible so they need to grow up fast. That also happened to you. You lost dad when you were barely a baby. Your mother was not kind person who loves their kid, she treated you like a maid. You were the one to clean house, it was you who needed to pay rents.

Every single mistake you made, had caused a yelling which was starting to get normal for you, to that point where you wanted to get yelled on so you work better. You started to skip food as punishment for your mistake. You used to squeeze belt in your pants till it digs into your skin. It felt good.

Yelling had made you more focused on your work so you liked it.

Then you came to military. You had learnt a lot already in fast time. Everyone liked you in team, even your cold and scary Lieutenant. When mission came and you made mistake, he yelled at you. It made another light in your head to turn on. Another good thing to learn.

It's been a while since you had came and this week wasn't your best, one of worst to be honest. Yet Ghost hadn't yelled at you as he saw that you improved so he stopped it. You needed it So you started making small mistakes to get under his skin, it did nothing. No matter how hard you tried so you gave up.

He was in training room, lifting weights. That's when you spot him.

"Lieutenant?" you spoke making him put them down and turn in your direction.

"Anything you need, sergeant?"

"yell at me" your expresion was not able to be read. Neutral.

"what?" He wanted to know if he had heard you correctly. "why would you want me to yell at you?"