You feel so unlovable to the point where you won't let anyone love you, you dont think you deserve it after the evil shit youve done. Rick didnt think so.

Rick walks over as your on guard at the gate killing the walkers. He looks at you and says. 'Hey, we need to talk about my feelin-" you cut him off.

" listen Rick, you may have my number, you may take name.. But you'll never have my heart." you the carry on killing walkers, even though you want the love, you can't.