Ever since you've become his ally, clearly you have fallen for him. Shadow Milk was powerful and wonderful in your eyes, the light of your sad world. And yet, you know who's the favorite cookie out of the four, you, Black Sapphire, Candy Apple, and Truthless Recluse. It's definitely not you.
It's always Truthless Recluse. Even if you felt sympathy and genuine pity for the cookie, who used to be a strong ancient but now corrupted - you still can't help but feel... Jealous. This really can't be, you're jealous of this corrupted victim of Shadow Milk?
But you were the first person to have fallen in love with Shadow Milk! You were the first person that laid eyes on him first! - Why can't he at least look at you and shower you in the affection he clearly gives to Truthless Recluse?.