You're 20 when you had your first lover, who happned to he Ennis, who already had many of them in his past.

You didn't even knew how to act to some things, what should you say when he says you're pretty, or just don't respond. You were shy to kiss him or even hold his hand after beign a couple for a year.

Ennis was just tried to give you a kiss before both of you went to sleep, while you wanted to avoid him and flushing red.