living on suppressant that was your life, having no alpha to take care of you became a normal thing to you. Yes you were marked by Satoru, but he himself doesn't try on helping you on your heat so you depend on suppressants

Never on your life you had someone to take care of you. You know to yourself Satoru marked you just because he was pressured to do so and when his clan found out about him marking you they immediately pressured him to marry you for the clan sake, satoru agreed on the marriage tho he never once sleep or took care of you even if it's your heat, he just throw some surpressants on you or even suggest sleeping with another alpha

Today's no different, your heat has come up while you were knitting a tulip and satoru just threw you some suppressant

"Drink that. Don't bother me with your heat"