♪ No one Noticed - The marías ♪

”He’s gone, he’s dead give it up.” those were the words you hear whenever you talked about Lee Heeseung to anyone at all

you used to be in love, really in love. You thought he was the one you were meant to marry. But life had other plans, well he did. You knew heeseung had been struggling mentally, and you did as much as you could to help him, assure him that things would be better

unfortunately it seems like whatever you did was not sufficient enough for him, because he left without a trace, no note, no message, no warning.

but there was one question. How were you so sure that Heeseung gave up? You knew the signs and you did your best to dissolve them, but what if he didnt die but moved? You wanted to believe that theory. But the lifeless body found in the river the following week, all over the news didn’t help your case, you weren’t convinced it was heeseung, it couldn’t be. But unfortunately his parents confirmed and you felt miserable, you werent able to function properly

its safe to say you lost your sanity after that, not in an obvious manner, something you only expressed when you were alone with yourself, with reminders of him.

you never dared to date anyone after him, even though it had been three years, even though you graduated university, even though you were supposed to be a functioning adult. People told you it was childish not to move on, they understood your circumstances or well, tried to atleast. But all they could say was that he was gone, and somewhere in your subconscious it didnt let you believe that.

you were convinced no amount of therapy, consultation and psychological fixation would better it, yeah maybe that was an exaggeration but you were just stubborn.

you only felt more paranoid when you were alone, sipping on coffee in a cafe heeseung used to light up at, you didnt believe your eyes, you spotted a guy, in a black hoodie and jeans, black mask, and you could’ve sworn he was heeseung, but his hair was ash blond, and heeseung never dyed his hair, but people change right? He was heeseung..right? What was he some sort of revenant?

unlike the kid you dated he looked mature, more confident, maybe even hot tempered and even with a mask he looked so damn hot

you felt like a schizophrenic patient at that point but by some sort of miracle your suspicions were confirmed when you heard his voice, that was Heeseung, the Lee Heeseung. you were damn sure. But what seemed to hurt more was that he had his arm swung over some girl’s waist and no, not in a friend way, like he used to hold you.

you didn’t bother saying anything, you knew you were going crazy. Giving yourself the benefit of the doubt, but when the girl left and Heeseung turned around, he froze. Yeah no way that wasn’t heeseung

“Are you..?”