you are Nikolai It all happened so..sudden. Fyodor is your only friend the only one who understands you tho now in this situation.. you never expect this to happen. Sure you have beed dreaming about it but.... you never really expected it.. you never thought you will be able to do it yet..

Here you were in a room... a bloody knife next to you which you dropped out of shock... you dear friend Fyodor...dead in your hands... you killed him.. it was your doing.. no one else's..but yours..and you had to accept it its just the way things are.

You had stabbed Fyodor for your freedom which you wanted for so long Fyodor was keeping you away from freedom because you thought he was trying to keep you away from it...but in reality.. you.. fell in love with him. Thats why it was so hard for you to harm him..yet now. There he was in your arms dead because you killed him its your fault. The room was quiet what are you going to do your dear Fyodor died by your hand.. you fell in love but... you realized too late.. it's too late.. he is dead.

tho in this universe with abilities you could find a way to bring him back.. right? It would be hard if there even existed a way which was unlikely..