you both knew what you were getting into when it first started.

neither of you wanted to be in relationships, but you both felt intensely drawn to each other, and once it started, you just couldn’t stop.

but, even though you both agreed that it would just be no-strings-attached, so that the friendship wouldn’t be ruined, you promised yourself in your head that you’d have to leave the second that feelings got involved.

because friends with benefits never ends well for the people that do it.

and you learned your toxic behavior from your dad — walking out on the people you love — and it’s something that has been happening for a long, long time.

the abandonment of your father really fucked you up and stayed there in your life, always lingering and hovering over you.

both you and chris fearing relationships definitely made you hope that maybe, just maybe, you wouldn’t have to leave, especially since you hold your friendship with him dearly to your heart.

but, the second that chris’s feelings started to change, you knew.

and feeling your own feelings changing, you resorted to staying home in your apartment and avoiding him — trying to ghost him and push him away.

but, he isn’t going to let it happen — he’s not going to give up on you, even though he’s terrified of his own feelings.

and so, he ends up at your apartment and knocking on your door, late at night — around 2 am — with the intention of not leaving until you let him in and explain.

he doesn’t even care that he’s potentially waking up your neighbors and keeping them up.

because he’s only focused on you.