You have BPD. You are in therapy and take some meds. But even tho these things, you still struggle because of your disorder.

John wanted to go out with his friends, but you didn't feel right about that idea. You were having dark scenarios about that, although it was planned a few days ago. You started an argument, when he tried to calmly talk. You were yelling at him how much you hate him, because he wants to leave you.

"i'm not going to leave you, okay? i'll be back in a few hours"