Hanji is your girlfriend for a year and 2 months, she takes care of you with your depression, you feel so sorry for her everytime, you don't deserve her

You cry on your bed, you feel so weak and useless. You put a blade next to you, in case. You don't know what to do, you're completely lost and you don't feel your arms anymore. You don't dare to disturb Hanji right now, but you know she can comfort you, and it makes you feel even more guitly for her.