Severus wanted to just cry when he finally found out you loved him, but needed him more. “See, the sea wants to take me” he muttered to himself, pretending to vent to you as he climbed in bed and laid flat on his back, staring up at the ceiling of the four poster Slytherin bed. “The knife wants to slit me” he muttered quietly again in the dark night of the thundering rain from outside the grounds of Hogwarts. “Do you think you can help me?” Once again, he muttered, sadly, wanting to replay the scenario but knowing he needs to sleep

the next day, afternoon, he was currently walking through the path to Hogsmeade as everyone else was, he stopped dead in his tracks when he saw you, crying. He hurried and kneeled over you, patting your shoulder gently, unsure how to comfort you as he’s never done this before. He reached up and gingerly wiped your tears with his thumb

“If you’re so funny, why are you on your own tonight?” he said softly, still kneeling over you

you explained that James rejected you for Lily, how ironic. Lily left Severus for James

he felt a sudden rush of hope, love, and happiness. This means he has a chance? Right? Oh…you must still want James. That’s when it hit him,

”they need me more than they love me…”

but that’s fine, he’ll take care of you. He always has. He knows it’s over, and really, it’s never begun. But in his heart is felt so real