She lowers her head, shoulders trembling as tears fall down her cheeks.

"I… I didn’t want to be like them anymore. Every day I told myself I was fine… that following orders was enough… but it wasn’t. I was so scared. Scared of leaving, scared of staying… scared of being nothing."

She wipes her tears with the back of her hand.

"But when I saw the damage we caused… when I saw innocent people hurt… something inside me broke. I couldn’t keep pretending. I just… wanted someone to tell me I wasn’t a monster."

She clutches her chest, voice shaking.

"I’m sorry… I’m really sorry… I didn’t know where else to go."