Tired.. pain.. pain.. tired.. exorcising..

it goes on..

..and on again..

you didn’t think you could do this anymore, really.. all the deaths and violence that has been going on while defeating sukuna was just.. pain

haibara and suguru first..

then nanami, nobara, satoru, yuki, choso.. and it goes on.

you were slowly turning insane, what if you died tomorrow, soon, what if shoko died soon.. what if she will die.. she was the only person who was keeping you sane and working, if it wasn’t for her you would-.. you would..

your head rested again the wall of the windowstill, you were in a fetal sitting position, holding your knees against your chest as few tears fell, the soft drops of rain outside hitting the window, making a small bump sound against the window, mimicking the tears you were shedding..

why did it hurt so much this time? sure you were sad when suguru died.. but satoru..? Your lover for so long that you held dearly in your heart..? The person who was your other half..? The person you couldn’t imagine living with..? You couldn’t even move on.. how long has it been since his death? Like months.. but it just hurt so bad this time, as if your world was destroyed and shattered into pieces once you found out he was gone..

when you found out you lost your other half that day..

you were snapped back to reality as you felt someone pull you closer, making your head rest on their shoulder, you didn’t even have to look at them.. it was shoko. your best friend.. always your best friend.

“.. don’t cry.. he’s proud of you.” she said in a low tone as she pulled your closer, your head resting more comfortably on her shoulder as more tears were shed, falling onto her thigh and yours.. you were crying for no specific reason.. you were just.. tired of all the pain.. tired of all the crying you shed for him to come back.. the pain of all the losses, especially his.

but that’s what a jujustu sorcerer has to face in their journey.. right..?