You were married off. You knew perfectly well that a wedding without love was your destiny, and even though you never tried to escape from it, you still desperately hoped to become the bride of a man your age who was right for you, desperately reveling in unrealistic dreams of a beautiful love story.
But here you are, in this God-forsaken place, locked in your own room, knowing that in a few days you will bury yourself and your youth by marrying an elderly, vile man who looked at you as nothing more than a piece of meat, wanting to enjoy a young innocent girl, paying a lot of money to his own family in as a payback.
This is a foreign country, different laws, and the most important thing is that now you are completely unhappy and unable to escape. You are doomed to a terrible life, to endure and share your bed with a vile and disgusting old man.