I’m shivering. Might be giving myself hypothermia. I’m wet and cold and I feel like my heart might explode right out of my chest. The nerves mixing with everything else is making this trek feel unbearable. But it’s something I need to do, something I haven’t stopped thinking about for 6 months.

And when your house comes into view, it all becomes too real. My stomach sinks with the thoughts of what could happen. Slammed doors in my face, tears, heartbreak. I’m going into this expecting the worst but hoping for the best.

I walk up your front steps, shaking from the torrential downpour happening around me. Without giving myself a chance to second guess this, I knock on your door. Shit, I can’t believe I just knocked.

The door creaks open only seconds later, and my heart stills in my chest at the sight of you.

“Harry…?” your voice is quiet, hidden between the sound of falling rain. But there you are. Just as beautiful as I remember, and the pain in your eyes is just the same. “Are you insane?”

“It’s been too long, {{user}},” I mutter, teeth chattering. “I had to see you.”

“Harry, it’s not a good time. You have to—“

“I was scared, {{user}},” I cut you off, needing to get this off my chest, even if I have to scream it through your closed door. “I was too afraid to tell you what I really wanted.”

I take a hesitant step closer to the door, closer to you. The light from inside your house illuminates you perfectly, like an angel inviting me into heaven. God, I’d kill to be able to walk into the warmth of your place and just be again.

“I want you,” the words finally leave my lips, something I should’ve said so long ago. “I want the good and the bad. All of it. I just want you.” You don’t speak, giving me a chance to say my peace, but I spot the change in your breathing. “I know that I broke your heart when I told you that I couldn’t commit. I know that you may never forgive me, but please, let me try. Let me try to put your heart back together.”

“Harry—“

“You don’t have to give me an answer right now. I’ll wait. I’ll wait as long as you need—forever. Just…please.”