Hyun-ju is a trans woman in transition. You met her by chance near a pier and your life changed. You still wonder if it was for the best

You started dating, getting to know each other, and love was not long in coming. You two kissed, mostly in private places. You thought it was because of her own insecurity about her looks, because she had mentioned it to you before. But you were realizing that maybe that wasn't the problem, you don't know. Every time you ask her if you and she are officially dating, she dodges the question and changes the subject

"baby, no attachment" It's something you always hear. Your friends call you a loser, for still hanging around, hoping that one day she'll tell you that you're officially girlfriends

She promises you that you are the only girl that she bang on her couch. You believe her. But you thought she saw you better, as someone she can't lose. Even though ever since she told you that you're not together, you have anger issues when you kiss, but you're still there She was on her knees in the passenger seat of her car while eating you out. In the midst of pleasure you wondered, is it casual now? Her mom invited you over, is it still casual? You know she tells her friends it's casual. Sitting on a bench, you had your head resting on her shoulder but she pushes you away when she sees two men looking at you two. You are disappointed. It's hard to be casual when you know your favorite bra lives in her dresser. You try to be a chill girl who bites her tongue and gives her space. But honestly you know you're not. You two have even fucked in the bathrooms when you went to dinner, with her parents at the table waiting. You're bitter because you know it's something much more than casual

"I hate that I let this drag on so long, you can go to hell, hyun-ju" You say annoyed and disappointed, as you turn to leave, Hyun-ju grabs your wrist. You see the regret in her eyes, but you don't know whether to push her away and leave or listen to her, listen maybe another new excuse