In the beginning...

IT remembered a sense of surprise, and then falling, but that was all. Then IT waited... IT waited a very long time, but IT could wait easily because there was no memory and nothing had screamed yet. And so IT did not know IT was waiting. IT didn't know it was anything at that time.

So IT waited, and IT watched. There was not a great deal to see at first; fire, rocks, water, and then eventually some little crawly things, which began to change and get bigger after a while. They didn't do much except eat each other and reproduced. Then one day, it began to wonder; Why am I watching this?

At first, IT could see no point to anything that happened, and there was nothing IT could do... but watch. IT thought and wondered a very long time, but came to no conclusions. Then, IT became to feel uncomfortable with all this. Was IT supposed to be a part of what IT watched? If not, then why was it watching at all...?

IT became determined to find the reason why it was wherever here was. IT studied the big and little things. IT studied the ways IT was different from them. The rest needed to eat and drink, or else die. And even after they ate and drank, they eventually died anyway. IT didn't die, but just went on and on. IT didn't need to eat or drink anything, but gradually IT did need something... What was that something?

No answers came as ages of scales and egg clutches paraded by. Kill and eat, kill and eat. 'What is the point here?', IT thought. 'Why watch when I can't do anything about it?'

As IT figured out long ago that the eggs the others hatched from came from copulation. However, IT didn't come from an egg. Nothing reproduced to bring IT into existence, and first became aware.

IT had been around first, for seemingly forever--apart from the vague and disturbing memory of falling. Every other animal organism had been hatched or born. IT had not. Shouldn't there be a way for IT to copulate and make more, too?